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the same love that makes me laugh & make me cry. ProfileLet me hear you call my name.elvina13 Dec 1992 Attach & Unavailable AffiliatesOne line ticket.cassandra journaldan eugene harith jacyln jerome joses larlene mathew pauline pearlynn qiuyun tengng zaini ziyin シェ—ン clubsE2 MATRIXSME followsXIAXUEArchivesRewind To My MemoriesBy month:November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 April 2011 May 2011 August 2011 July 2015 August 2015 September 2015 October 2015 January 2016 |
✏ Monday, July 5, 2010 12:21 AM actually i have type a long post just now, but i accidentally off the wrong switch so everything was totally gone and i am less emotional now. so i cant think much so i shall write wad i can remember for now. maybe this is heaven's will to switch off the wrong switch so that i can start a new and be less emotion. anyway this post is meant to be read by anyone, so if your feel that it is not really happy after reading, feel free to talk to me in personal, i am fine. and for today is lab test in the afternoon follow by meeting with Jeannie and then Andre and Harifth, yupps. have quite a long chat with Jeannie and Andre, sometimes, things always dun goes with the way we wanted, and dun really believe that everything just happen so coincide. and dun really noe who to trust. should we just really give them a chance by listening wad they really have to say? i am really blur, should i still stand for them or stand for us? i dun really like to be in the middle, even though i am neutral, but this few things happen really make me feel like taking sides. i really need to clear my mind and think again. =( and i think your should really think before your say something. a family? do you know what is the meaning of this word? do your really mean it? if you dun mean it i hope you guys should just stop saying until your really mean it. if not i dun think there is a point saying that. huiyi, thanks for listening, feeling rather at ease now. and really i hope that we can endure for the time, and hope that i still have the faith to stay on and remove the tradition that has pass down. i hope i really got the chance to break free and have the trust back again. anyway i still believe that hard work will pay off some days later. to 3ppl, hope that your had read this post and think about what your have done and also hope it can refresh our memory about what your had said to me. and hope that actions will be taken by your to resolve all this misunderstanding and not creating more misunderstanding between us. i know that currently i have quite a number of commitments i know is my fault, but did you guys think about when your have commitments did i say anything? i will always try my best to be there just for your, break ups, birthdays, outings and stuffs. what about mine? are you there when is my birthday & my break ups? i kept silent, cause i didnt want your to worry. Many times, i am late for outings, because i have things to attend to is either work or stuffs, but i am still there right, wad about u? u just say u cant come. did i say anything? i think i did scarify for your, did you scarify for me? and also last minutes meet ups when i was always the one not told, how am i possible be there? is this my fault too for not asking when your meeting? you maybe free but i am not, i have things to attend to but i still try my best to be there but late, what was say was, you are always late. do you know more and more times i feel that it is kind of sad when i make the effort to be there but not appreciated. do your mind doing me a favor? put yourself in my situations and think from my point, your will really feel the differences. is not that i dun wish to be there, is just that i cant be there, who wants to miss out all the fun that we use to have? the answer is no, i bet we gone through so much together is this really going to break us apart? i think is not worth it, i will be more than happy if your seen this post and come and confront me at least i know that you care for me. i seriously dun wish to lost this group of bitches where we spent 3years of Christmas together. this is all the sweet times we had. i really miss the time when we really communicate more often then now. didnt we use to say even when we goes to poly and we have our own life we will still we SISTERS FOREVER!! how i wish that this phrase is still valid. it is not about complaining but more about voicing out. i still love my sisters, and i believe that this wont break us apart right? but i believe that this will make us stronger and not weaker... i think i should give myself a break,
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